Personal Story of sister S.A.
I cant ever remember my mum telling me to wear a dupatta on my head, but when I got married and was in Pakistan I used to wear it all the time when I used to go out. When my husband came over to England he saw that I didn’t wear it outside and was always telling me to wear it when we use to go out, he would say what if someone we know saw you and youv not got your head covered, it was always about people seeing me not that it was an order from Allah, and I used to ignore him always.
Eventually we had children they grew up and started going to the Madrassah. My children used to come home and would practice their sabak that the appa had given them, and I couldnt help them because I had been taught the old way of reading Quran and I was scared I would pronounce the words incorrectly. I asked appa if she would teach me and she directed me to the local Masjid where they had twice weekly lessons in tajweed for women. I started going there and having lessons, and the appas used to give us taleem each week too.
They use to concentrate on the topics that covered women’s issues. I used to go there with my dupatta on my head which use to slip off all the time, then1 day I had my daughters scarf on, and a buzarg lady told me how to pin it up so it wouldn’t fall down. After listening to hadiths and observing the appas and students in the classes I started thinking that I too want to wear a hijab.I wanted to get sawab like everyone who was covering up. I wasn’t pressurised by the appas, I wasn’t forced by my parents or my husband, but in my heart I knew that i wanted to wear the hijab, it just seemed the right thing to do.
Im 1000% sure I was influenced by the people that I was meeting twice weekly for my lessons. Influenced in a good way not in a bad way. So I started wearing the hijab, after a few weeks I decided that the next logical step would be the jaaba, my mum told me to take some clothes to the Masjid for charity and in the bag was 1 of my mum’s plain black jaba, I asked my mum if I could have it and she said yes. I had it shorted and started wearing it. It felt so right, its the best decision that I have ever made.
I call the time before I started covering up my jahilyat period. By the grace of Allah swt I was shown the way by him, I feel I am so blessed.I am much more Islamic now than I ever was before I started going to these lessons. I have learnt so much by going to these lessons and I thank Allah swt that he chose me to get nearer him. It does make you feel very special it really does.
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